^^ good point. You also express in a way that sounds B4 will benefit such as if I had the time to rest a litte, I'll be more productive in my work...and I'm affraid that being to tired (sleeping only 5, 4 hrs a night for so long) will cause to make mitake when doing my work.

I also think you are so depress because you are tired. I learned that when I don't sleep well then I get very depressed too...also, remind yourself that this job is only temporary....good luck and keep us posted

I remember those days when I dread the thoughts of waking up. I remember oh so many of those depressed days. But yet in the blink of an eye I endured more than three years of it. I guess the advice is it will get better. Try to find a group of coworkers you are decently interested in. I know how important it is to eat lunch infront of your computer at a big four, but try to eat lunch out at least once or twice a week. It will do so much to cheer you up. Try to not focus on the negatives. Time passes quickly when you are busy. Lastly, know that you are not alone in these feelings of dread. I remember an advice given by a manager who was on her way out. She said in this profession, everyone around you is putting pressure on you. The last thing you want to do is add more pressure on yourself. So if you screw up or you are taking too long to finish something, oh well. The mess will be cleaned up. It will be done. It always gets done in the end. So breathe. You will survive this, at least to the day when better opportunities will surface. Good luck! :)

Oh and one last thing, you may just have to accept the fact that you are going to be working 50+ hours a week for the rest of the year, and that you WILL have to respond to every single irresponsible manager and people who believe your minute can be split into two. It comes with the job. Once you accept it, you will feel less angry, sad, or taken advantage of. 

goodnews wrote: IN Europe people work 30-35 hours a week and they are very well civilized and live a wonderful life.

Very well civilized? Live a wonderful life? The entire continent isn't one big bloc of social benefits and 2 hour lunches, you shouldn't generalize so. The grass always looks greener on the other side and Europe's got it's own problems too.